Sunday Melancholy

sad pug puppy face, very familiar to me

A lot of my friends and family are experiencing such amazing things at the moment, and while I am happy for them, I cannot help also feeling overwhelmingly jealous. I know that they’ve worked hard for what they have achieved, and I am immensely proud of them, but it frustrates me to no end. Even though I know that almost all of that frustration is directed towards myself, I still just don’t like it. I’ve never really been that great with change, or at least change that is foisted upon me abruptly, and I know that my time will eventually come (it better!) but I really feel like I’m getting left behind while everyone else is living such amazing lives. Most nights that very thought is enough to send me to tears, because I want nothing more than to be able to get that ideal job, move out of home, get off welfare payments and start living my own life.

And not to mention, that all anyone can seem to say to me is “welcome to the real world”, or “grow up” or “stop living in a fantasy” which frustrates me to no end because really, what world have I been living in up until now? Narnia? I know that I need to pull my finger out and get my stuff together, but (and maybe it’s just me) that doesn’t seem so simple as everyone is making it appear to me. It’s times like that that all I want is for someone to wrap me up in their arms and comfort me, telling me that everything is going to be okay.

Not the greatest mindset to be living in right now, slightly childish and naive maybe, hopefully I snap out of it soon. Netherlands/Mexico is on tonight so hopefully that does the trick, hup Oranje!

Love,
Andrea

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Taking Stock – June 17th

One of my new favourite bloggers at The Illusive Femme recently did a “Taking Stock” post. Having gone back to look at it and the site from which it originated (Meet Me at Mikes), I’m finding that I really like it (I am a sucker for list posts too) and I also would like to co-opt it for myself. The aim is to do one of these every month, to be able to sort of see how my goals and things have progressed. So without any further ado, here is my first stock taking!

Making: A Sailor Moon cross stitch that I will probably either frame or cushion.

Cooking: Curry, gnocchi and lots of pastas with “empty the fridge” (i.e. anything that is in the fridge goes in) sauces.

Drinking: Lots of green teas. I usually go for the ones with lemon in it, especially the Lipton pyramid ones, but I like Twinings too.

Reading: Jurassic Park, Friday Night Lights, Kavalier and Clay, The Infernal Devices and Meg Cabot. Too many books? Impossible!

Wanting: Summer, regular employment, a single digit sized body.

Looking: Forward to getting paid next week so I can pay off my car (finally)!

Playing: Cluedo on the computer, Lana Del Rey on the stereo and basketball when it’s not raining outside.

Deciding: whether or not I should brave the storm and head to the gym tonight.

Wishing: I was in Brazil for the World Cup.

Enjoying: Reading in bed with popcorn and green tea, listening to the wind and rain outside.

Waiting: for those ever elusive interview calls.

Liking: watching the World Cup with my brother at two in the morning.

Wondering: how to drum up some motivation to get me out of bed on days like this.

Loving: how I spent five of the last six nights ♥

Pondering: if I should re-read ASOIAF now that the fourth season of the show has ended.

Considering: getting my hair cut into a fringe again (when I can afford it).

Watching: Nigella Feasts and Rugrats on the iview.

Hoping: I get a job by the end of the month!

Marvelling: at the unpredictability and sheer wonder and magnitude of the World Cup. Portugal and Spain both losing by four goals in their first games? Singlehandedly bring countries to their knees.

Needing: to quit being lazy and just do the things I am supposed to be doing!

Smelling: A mix of Sunkissed Glow (yes, the Jennifer Lopez perfume) and boy, on the jumper I am currently wearing.

Wearing: Han Solo blue T shirt, black zip up hoodie, grey track suit pants (that I have somehow owned and been able to regularly wear since 2006), pink bonds socks.

Following: Sarah Jessica Parker, Poppy Lissiman, Lena Headey on Instagram.

Noticing: That I really need to clean my bedroom.

Knowing: I need to get my stuff together, stop waiting for someone/something to magically rescue me from my current predicaments.

Thinking: about boy, buying houses, somehow finding out I am the heir to an obscure European country ala Mia Thermopolis in The Princess Diaries.

Feeling: Despondent and frustrated, but yet determined.

Admiring: my friends and anyone with careers/houses, Jennifer Lopez and Diana Taurasi.

Sorting: My life. Unsuccessfully.

Buying: Friday Night Lights dvds, socks, books and Vanity Fair.

Getting: frustrated at myself for recognising what I need to be doing and yet still no doing it.

Bookmarking: ASOIAF theory essays, Grantland articles and a profile on Lana Del Rey.

Disliking: having not enough hours in the day, current living circumstances, current lack of organisation.

Opening: my window a smidge to smell the rain outside.

Giggling: at the boy.

Feeling: slightly more motivated, because of thinking about boy. It might be inherently anti-feminist of me, but I would do anything for that man and he inspires and motivates me.

Snacking: waaaay too much. Just finished a bag of popcorn, and I have a drawer in my nightstand filled with oat bars and cheese dips to put in my bag when I go out.

Coveting: A hot European or South American holiday, or body.

Wishing: for a teaching job that still allowed me to be able to stay up until four in the morning. Ha!

Helping: out in my household by taking down the (wet) washing so it doesn’t get more wet.

Hearing: The rail on the roof and windows, and hitting the patch of ground outside my window.

 

Hopefully I remember to do this once a month. I think it’s an interesting iteration of all those Myspace quizzes (you all know the ones I mean!) and hopefully allow me to sort of examine myself and how I’m going at the time.

Today is also Tuesday, and at last check I have now missed two Top Ten Tuesdays, back on track with them soon hopefully. As you may have gleaned I have been having a slight motivation/laziness crisis as of late. Hope you are all having a good month though, and watching a lot of the World Cup!

Love,
Andrea

Music Monday: The Cup of Life

I am a soccer (football, shush!) obsessive, and even though the Socceroos are going to have it so rough this year (there’s a line of betting of them not scoring a single goal all tournament), I am still so so excited for this Thursday! I have been listening to these three songs repeatedly all this week, and I think they are the perfect tracks to inspire that sporting passion, that national pride and absolute wonder that comes with the World Cup.

The Cup of Life – Ricky Martin (1998)

 

 

Waka Waka (This Time for Africa) – Shakira (2010)
(This song gives me goosebumps every time I hear it, and even though I have not lived in South Africa for 23 years, I still have such pride at being Saf and having had the biggest event in the world held in South Africa four years ago)

 

 

La La La (Brazil 2014) – Shakira featuring Carlinhos Brown (2014)
(Yes, I know that this is not the offical World Cup song for this year, but I’m not really a fan of that on as much as I worship at the altar of Jennifer Lopez)

Here is the official 2014 World Cup song, by Pitbull featuring Jennifer Lopez and Claudia Leitte:

 

Hope your team does well this World Cup! My money this year is on the host nation (Brazil) or the Dutch, though I think the African nations can pull off a few surprise results too.

Love,
Andrea

Cliché Afflicted

Short one tonight.

One of my best friends, someone who I talk to everyday for hours and hours and truly value their opinion above anybody in the world, just told me that I talk/write in clichés and it is “super annoying”

As someone who prides myself on my writing and communication skills, I feel super offended by this, however I’m also wondering if this is a common thing, or perhaps my friend is just being a douchebag or even perhaps this is something that I actually have a problem with.

What are your thoughts, those of you who write? Would you be similarly offended or introspective, or am I just overreacting?

Love,
Andrea

Ten Books That Will Be In My Beach Bag This Summer

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It is killing me to no end that while today is the third day of winter here in little old Perth, almost everything else I read is gearing up for summer! Fortunately that also allows me to vicariously live through what I read and imagine that it is in fact summer and I am sitting on a beach instead of huddled up underneath my doona getting warmth from my laptop.

I am a sucker for any kind of summer article, book, movie, music anything. it just makes me feel so happy and warm. Most importantly it helps me to forget my mounting troubles and (as corny as this may be) radiate some sort of inner warmth. So without further ado, and brought to you by The Broke and the Bookish,  here are my top ten books that will be in my beach bag this summer, and that I always end up reading during my December to February summer.

  1. Breakfast at Tiffany’s – Truman Capote
  2. Summer Crossing – Truman Capote
  3. South Beach (and the rest of the Spring Break series: French Kiss and Hollywood Hills) – Aimee Friedman
  4. Boy Meets Girl – Meg Cabot
  5. Surf School and Surf Sisters – Laurine Croasdale
  6. The Chronicles of Narnia – C.S. Lewis
  7. Silver Shadows – Richelle Mead (what I will be reading when you guys are all having summer)
  8.  Top Secret Twenty-One – Janet Evanovich (ditto)
  9. Unlucky 13 – James Patterson (ditto)
  10. The Fault In Our Stars – John Green (ditto, plus I figure I may as well read it now)

Hope you guys are staying warm (if like me you are beginning the descent into winter) or pumping up the summer jams!

Love,
Andrea